Dax Shepard recently revealed that he’s been documenting some tough moments from his childhood in his upcoming memoir.
The Armchair Expert podcast host opened up about the sexual abuse he experienced as a child during the Monday, March 2, episode of the show after guest Marcus Mumford spoke about detailing a similar situation in Mumford and Sons’ song “Cannibal.”
“I want to bond with you on this experience, which is, I have for years on here been acknowledging that I had been molested, and that was its own hurdle to just say that,” Shepard, 51, said. “And I got quite comfortable being able to say that. That was fine.”
He continued, “Now I’m writing a memoir, and last year really the whole year was about, do I have the balls to write down the details of this?”
“Because the details were always gonna be mine,” the Hit & Run star added. “I didn’t want anyone to be envisioning me. It’s weird that that was still some wall between my shame.”
“I bet it took me four months to tell that story,” he added. “And when I’m writing it, I cannot help but thinking of people knowing this about me and how still exposed that feels.”
“I was having really weird, kind of, spikes of emotions and moodiness, and I would forget that’s why I was having that,” Shepard recalled. “But I finished it, and something about it existing there feels like a lot of weight is off my shoulders.”
Shepard first opened up about being molested as a child in December 2020, and while he said the abuse was “minimal,” it still had a serious effect on him.
“It took me 12 years to tell anyone,” he said on Sirius XM’s The Jason Ellis Show at the time. “And then all that time, I was like, a) ‘It’s my fault,’ as generic as that is … ‘and I’m gay, I must have manifested this because I’m secretly gay.’ I had all these insane thoughts for 11 years or 12 years.”